To say these past two days have been tough would be an understatement! I am.....what's a word that's stronger than exhausted cause that's what I am......
Oh how I have missed the fabulous people that I work with and oh how I have loved getting back into the swing of things - doing a job that I love so much. That's honest!! I have really enjoyed the therapy that I have gotten to do for the most part over the last few days. I have seen some old patients and am amazed at how much they have grown and changed since I have been gone. These kids become like my own kids and many of the parents become friends....I've missed watching them grow up!! I fell right back into all the craziness with my co-workers too - man, good people make a necessary evil like work SO much more tolerable!!
Unfortunately, along with walking into a great group of co-workers that I have missed I also walked in to a ton of policy/paperwork changes. None of the changes are earth shattering but there have been a lot of little things that have changed over the last 6 months and I'm trying to get used to all of them all at once - that has been a lot overwhelming. Not to mention the obscene number of emails I had to wade through (and I had checked it several times since I have been gone!) I also walked into to a schedule that is crazy - to put it nicely. I knew I was in for it when my supervisor texted me last Friday to "apologize in advance" for my schedule. She wasn't kidding!! A bad week at work is one in which you have 4-5 evaluations (new patients) - This week....I HAVE NINE!! Plus I am booked solid to the point that even finding time to pump to make sure my kiddo is fed has been a challenge - at times even impossible!
I also have learned quickly that I HATE packing my lunch (I've only done it twice) and feel like I'm going to have to get up in the middle of the night to actually get out the door on time (since that has not actually happened yet)! Work is also physically exhausting - I haven't moved this much since before surgery!!
Alarms are no fun! I haven't gotten up to an alarm except for a random day here or there for doctors appointments in 6 months so that alone is frankly super tough! Then my littlest love bug continues to really enjoy quality time with mommy in the middle of the night. He's super inconsistent too....which makes it harder I think because I can't really plan accordingly. He is pretty consistently giving me four hours at a time. A handful of times I've gotten 6. The other night I woke up and was absolutely sure he was dead because it had been 8 hours and I hadn't heard a peep......(for the record he was fine when I got up the nerve to actually look in his crib and he woke up about 20 minutes later starving)....then last night, I had to fight him for 4. Who knows!! And so what...maybe I was spoiled...but the fact is that BOTH of the twins were consistently sleeping through the night (like 9-10 hours) by 9 weeks old!! Easton is 10 weeks old and well....not so much!
The kids are doing great! I was a little worried that the boys would have trouble with me leaving since I have been around for the last 6 months, but they have been totally fine. Feel like they have hardly noticed to be honest. Easton isn't picky about who he's with as long as he is getting fed so that transition has also been smooth. Thank goodness!! I needed some part of this transition to go smoothly!! It's easy to leave the kids when I know they are in very capable hands!!
Well enough complaining....I need to get back to the paperwork that I had to bring home to work on after only two days.....Thanks for all the well wishes. I know that things will work themselves out. I feel blessed to have a job that I love! I know my body will eventually get used to getting up again and Easton will sleep through the night at some point....I'm sure my brain will get used to using all those big therapy words I know again as well....Hoping it kicks back into gear sooner rather than later - I have a TON of paperwork to do already!!
Love and Hugs