Thank God it's all over...for now that is!!
This has been the craziest week ever!! Easton had 5 doctors appointments this week (that's one for every day), our babysitter has been super sick and out since Monday, it's my last week of maternity leave, the air conditioner is acting up and then on Monday we added to all that the stress of a big jump in his head circumference.....
So for those of you who haven't heard our appointment on Thursday for the ultrasound and with the neurosurgeon went wonderfully! We had the ultrasound - and this time I knew better....I didn't even try to ask any questions. It was the same ultrasound tech as last time and last time she made it very clear that she isn't who "reads" them and is not able to tell us anything about what she is seeing.
We headed upstairs to see the neurosurgeon....I felt like I was in slow motion - part of me wanted to run up there because I just wanted to know but there was another part of me that wanted to run to the car and forget the whole thing because I was terrified about what the news might be.
We waited patiently until she walked in and like it was on cue, the very first thing she did was pet his head - like she always does and said - "oh, his head feels so perfect!"
Cue huge sign of relief!! I laughed and said "You have no idea how much we have wanted to hear you say that!!" The doctor pulled up the images from the ultrasound that we had just had along with the ones from a month ago to compare. The doctor felt that if there was a change in his ventricle size it was very minimal and nothing that would be considered significant at this point. She said she wanted us to go back to the pediatrician in one month for a repeat head circumference check - more for my sanity and she wants us back for a repeat head ultrasound and appointment with her at the end of September. So for now, we continue to be in the clear - with those ventricles doing exactly what they are supposed to be!! Stephen and I celebrated with a very fancy lunch at the mall food court after our good news and enjoyed some nice deep breaths all evening!! (Thanks Grandma and Grandpa Diehl for helping with the twins!!)
Friday was our fifth doctors appointment for the week.....What a way to spend my last week of maternity leave!! We went to see Mike at Bremer Brace to figure out a plan for the hip brace that Dr. Loveless wants him in. Mike is the orthotist that I work closely with through work so it was nice to know I was in good hands!! Mike took some measurements and is going to do a little research and get back to me on what our exact plan is but he is hoping it wont need to be anything to big and bulky....I'm crossing my fingers for that as well!!
Now tonight I sit here sort of in denial that it's all over. I have been home for 6 months and tomorrow is my first day back at work. I have really mixed emotions about the entire thing. I absolutely love what I do and I work with amazing people who I have really missed so I am looking forward to getting back to them! At the same time I have so enjoyed being home with the boys for this long...even though Emilee (our babysitter) has still been keeping the twins for us, I have been in the house and readily available for the last six months. Plus I'm leaving Easton for the first time. I have been joking that I'm a little concerned that I'm not going to remember how to be a physical therapist since it has been so long!! I'm also a little concerned that I may have lost my touch - the last few babies that I have held have not had any interest in being my friend.....
I know that I need to go back. Financially and mentally. God did not create me to be a stay at home mom (kudos to all of you out there - you have an unbelievably hard job!!) and I feel very strongly that I am a better mom when I'm working. But even still, going back tomorrow is going to be hard - emotionally, mentally and physically!! (It wasn't real reassuring when my supervisor sent me a message on Friday "apologizing in advance" for the craziness of my schedule....guess I'm diving right back in full throdle)
But, I should probably not put the inevitable off any longer.....My lunch is packed, I have ensured that my scrubs do still fit and the house is in order. Now, here's hoping that Easton sleeps well tonight so that I am not a total zombie tomorrow.....
Thank you for all your prayers!
Love and Hugs